Happy Saturday friends :)
Hope you all enjoyed this lovely cold and snowy weather we have been having. If you know me you know I LOVE IT!! Soon I will be able to snowmobile! ehehe
Anyways.. I wanted to make sure I shared this quote with you all
I will wear the scars of my decisions forever, but I will no longer let them shape who I am. The past has not defined me, destroyed me, deterred me, or defeated me. It has only strengthened me.
I'm not sure whos quote this is but I enjoy it. I have a lot of scars from my past. I've been treated like garbage by way too many people.. too many times. I was way too forgiving. I honestly believed I would never be happy again.. that no one could love me because I was worthless. I remember my ex telling me that I would never find someone like him again. WELL THANK GOD!!!!!
I am with the most amazing guy I've never met. Someone who can bring a full on smile to my face just by crossing my mind.
The past has not destroyed me.. even though I thought it would.
The past has not deterred me.. even though I thought it would.
I DID NOT let it defeat me.
In December of 2010 I wrote this after getting out of an abusive relationship:
He ruined me.. he ruined who I was.. I was a confident, happy person who never stopped smiling..and now .. I am the girl who hates her self.. who hates mirrors and is always disguising my emotions because I hurt so bad. Sure, I am always smiling but that's what I have to do to not have to explain why I'm so sad. There are few things that make me happy anymore.. FEW..
Today I feel incredible. I feel sexy.. I feel pretty.. I have never been happier in my entire life. I don't hurt. I smile all the time because I AM happy and I love telling everyone about WHY I am so happy :)
I am a new person. A stronger person. Though those scars are still with me they do not shape who I am today. Anybody who knows me knows that I am a different person. I walk with a different air of confidence. I smile for no reason at all! I am no longer unhappy with the way I look or with my life.
I am me. I am strong!
And I am not changing!
Keep smiling peeps and enjoy the weekend!